The speaker discusses their personal experiences and struggles, including dealing with rumors, personal trauma, and their sexual orientation. They express frustration over their private life being publicized without consent, leading to misinformation and gossip. The speaker also touches on past drug use, a traumatic sexual experience, and the challenges of living as a lesbian in Russia. They mention plans to seek asylum in America due to these difficulties but note that their plans were disrupted by external events. The speaker emphasizes a desire for privacy and to move forward with their life without further public scrutiny.
Here are the key facts extracted from the text:
1. The speaker identifies as a lesbian.
2. The speaker did not serve time in prison.
3. The speaker had a period of two years where they voluntarily used drugs.
4. The speaker had a traumatic sexual experience that affected their mental state, self-perception, and self-esteem.
5. The speaker moved to St. Petersburg at the age of 20.
6. The speaker had few friends in their hometown and only met people who didn't care about their orientation in St. Petersburg.
7. The speaker planned to move to America and apply for asylum due to their sexual orientation, but the war with Ukraine disrupted their plans.
8. The speaker applied for an American visa in January 2022 but had to wait for an unknown amount of time.
9. The speaker's plans were to live in America for several years without taking any pictures or videos, waiting for a green card.
10. The speaker was considering crossing the border between Mexico and the USA and being detained in a correctional center as a last resort.
11. The speaker used drugs from the summer of 2016 to March 2018.
12. The speaker's favorite childhood game was "deaf telephone".
13. The speaker's friend, Yulik, was unrequitedly in love with them at one point.
14. The speaker had a traumatic experience with Yulik, which they shared with only a few people.
15. The speaker moved out of Yulik's apartment and into a new one, where they lived for five years.
16. The speaker's lawyer helped them find a new apartment and they only had to pay 15,000 rubles for the room.
17. The speaker's friend from Moscow was one of the few people who knew about the traumatic experience with Yulik.
18. The speaker's friends at the time told them that their attraction to girls was a "temporary story" and a "phase".
19. The speaker wants to continue living their life and making videos without being bothered about their past experiences.