The speaker, presumably a pregnant woman, is expressing her stress and anxiety about an upcoming C-section due to her twins being in breech position. She also shares her concerns about the impending arrival of her babies being premature, and the possibility of having to spend time in the NICU.
She discusses her doctor's advice to grieve the potential of not being able to experience a vaginal birth and the immediate bonding that usually follows. She also mentions her doctor's suggestion to prepare for the possibility of the babies arriving soon, which is causing her significant stress.
The speaker also talks about the ongoing preparations for the arrival of the babies, including the decoration of the baby nursery. She expresses her frustration at the interruption of these preparations due to the impending delivery.
She shares her experience of having a panic attack and how she copes with the stress and anxiety of her pregnancy. She also discusses her struggle with body image, mentioning that she has gained 65 pounds during her pregnancy.
Finally, she shares a moment of solace in watching Cynthia Erivo's performance in "The Color Purple" on Broadway, which helped her cope with her stress and anxiety.
Here are the key facts extracted from the text:
1. The text is a transcript of a video blog by a pregnant woman who is expecting twins.
2. The woman had a doctor's appointment and learned that the twins are both breech, meaning they are not in the optimal position for vaginal delivery, and that they might be premature and need to go to the NICU.
3. The woman is stressed and anxious about having a C-section and not being able to bond with her babies right away.
4. The woman also has to change her diet because she might have gestational diabetes, which is a condition that affects blood sugar levels during pregnancy.
5. The woman has gained 65 pounds since she got pregnant, which is more than the recommended amount for twin pregnancies, and she is sensitive about her weight and food intake.
6. The woman has a toddler son named Flynn who has his own Christmas tree that he decorates with trucks.
7. The woman is a fan of musical theater and finds comfort in watching Cynthia Erivo sing "I'm Here" from The Color Purple.