The speaker is preparing for a video where they will have a conversation with their father, who has never been on camera before. They are nervous about what to say and how to approach the conversation, but also excited about the possibility of reconnecting with their father. They express fears about how their father might react to the camera, but also a desire to have a genuine conversation.
They mention that they have written down some questions for the conversation, such as how their father felt about their mother's divorce, why they never really connected, and where they should go from here. They also express a desire to understand their father better and to move on from past issues.
The speaker talks about their mother and how she struggled with life in general, and how they took her side during the divorce. They also discuss how they felt like they were just a burden to their father, and how they felt like they didn't know how to talk to him.
The speaker shares that they have a sense of humor and a love for movies, which they believe they got from their father. They also mention that they felt like they should have been part of their father's creative endeavors, but couldn't go back to change that.
The speaker also talks about their relationship with their father, expressing that they feel closer to him now than they ever have before. They express regret for leaving their father and their mother, and acknowledge that they didn't deserve to be involved in their parents' issues.
In conclusion, the speaker expresses happiness and relief about the conversation with their father, and hopes that others who are struggling with similar issues will find the courage to reconnect with their loved ones. They also express a sense of starting a new life, and express gratitude to their father for being there for them.
1. The speaker plans to do a video where they talk to their dad.
2. The speaker is nervous about the upcoming video and is not sure what to say or how to start the conversation.
3. The speaker has written down some questions to ask their dad about their relationship and the divorce.
4. The speaker is anxious and stressed about the upcoming video.
5. The speaker and their dad are driving to Ventura Beach.
6. The speaker's mother is supportive and confident that the video will be a wonderful experience.
7. The speaker is nervous about meeting their dad and is not sure what to expect.
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9. The speaker is anxious about their dad's reaction to the video.
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