The speaker, who has been diagnosed with bipolar II, shares their experiences with mental health, including their interactions with a psychiatrist who Googled them during a session and played some of their ACT back to them. They also discuss their hospital experiences, where they felt completely altered and disconnected from their own identity. The speaker mentions feeling excruciating pain, which they describe as a sensation they have not felt before. They express gratitude for the medication that was administered to them during these times.
The speaker also talks about their admiration for comedian Jonathan Winters, who they regret not having the chance to meet. They mention Winters' experience with depression and psychotic episodes, and how he was numbed out with allium in the 60s. They relate Winters' experience to their own, and express a sense of empathy for people who have committed suicide, understanding the level of suffering they have experienced.
Throughout the conversation, the speaker uses humor to cope with their experiences, and they express a sense of guilt and anger towards those who have committed suicide. They also make light of the situation, comparing their experiences to those of historical figures like Hitler and Stalin, and expressing a desire for spicy food.
1. The individual has been diagnosed with bipolar II.
2. They have had a competitive conversation with someone who is bipolar I.
3. They have never had psychosis, but they were told to "Murder by my dog".
4. They have been in several psych wards, including Glendale Adventist Psychiatric Medical Center and West psych West.
5. They have had a negative experience at Encinas, a psychiatric facility, and left a bad Yelp review.
6. They have had a session with a retired psychiatrist who Googled them during the session and played some of their ACT back to them.
7. They have had experiences where they thought they were someone else, and someone just assumed they were a comedian.
8. They have been told to say a joke or be funny in a hospital circumstance.
9. They have had experiences where they were in a completely altered state, feeling like their brain was not there.
10. They have described a pain that they have not felt before, and they have not felt the pain described by others.
11. They have had experiences where every moment was excruciating, and they were grateful when they received medication.
12. They have had experiences with Jonathan Winters, a comedian who was known for his hilarious performances.
13. They have had experiences with depression and suicidal thoughts, which has given them empathy for people in their life who have committed suicide.
14. They have been told to "keep going" by a friend, which is the only advice anyone can give in such situations.